1. To lazy to update resumé
|Credit to Grandpa Google|
I have being not updating my resume since 3-4 months ago. At that moment it was because I had this one huge fight with my freaking boss and I almost give in and punch her face. But no, I didn't and still acted civil but after I start to updating my resumé and email to every vacant positions I found in Jobstreet. It was a short released to tell my own self that I have other options but I chose to be here. I chose to be here. Why would I snap and run away? So I stay..... since there is no calls from others company or maybe, just maybe my salary is just too high for them to accept (Hye, I'm one of the SME: Subject-Matter-Expect, so I have to keep my standard high) or probably I'm just a noob (with 1 year & 7 months experience) in industry. But then what's with this 'experience thingy requirement' by the way? So the point is, I just stay and lucky me; my boss leave me alone after the freaking fight. Yeah. It is stupid when you wanna leave this kind of well developed company just because you can't stand your boss. And beside, I'm seriously too lazy to update my resume.
2. The 'Anxiety' of starting all over again
That one feeling when you have to start all over again in a new place, with new people and environment. How to adapt? What's is my new freaking boss be like? Are the colleagues as much as fun and crazy like my previous company? How long I will stand to be here if I'm always run away? It's a mix feeling of guilty and at the same time, you don't want to deal with it. Currently, every inch of the plantation know who's freaking I am and it wouldn't took much time to deal with them. So I figured, I hate to repeat all over tedious things being a new employee and enjoy this moment and anxiety-free.
3. Family and friends
"How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got? Everything I went through, you were standing there by my side - Wiz Khalifa"
My mom got this silly thought I'm doing great working here. Well.... I did. But that's not the freaking point. The point is she made my late grandpa made me to sealed a promise; not leaving the job I have now. And the only person I never say no to is him. That's a weak reason to begin. But he meant a lot to me, every gestures, every words, every smiles he rarely commit. I miss him damn much.
On the hand, my friends; they're would love if I quit since I barely have time with them (pipel... I will always make time for you ok?) and because I once admitted to hospital because of stress. I blame my self. I have friends and family and yet I had found no solution to reduce but just to bottled up everything inside. Should I whining and complaint more? Hahaha *listing down names to whining-&-complaint session*
4. The Food
This is another weak reason. The foods awesome eventhough I had them enough. Where else would I eat if I'm working like 12 hours and just to go home to sleep? And why you sarcastically insult youself, Ked? A weak point.
5. Working attire
Oh ho. This is the strongest among strongest point. I should make this the 1st reason instead. But nah. You guys got the idea by the way. It's freaking jeans, t-shirt and sneakers/boots attite for the whole day/weeks/months/years. I'm counting my shoes. Wow! We can have our own shoes outlet now.
There's always a very fine line between family and strangers. I must 190% agree with this. Here I have a few of colleagues, that act like a father to me. It's a big deal? For me? Yes. I just lost my grandpa a couple months ago and he's the only my old good man I had. But then all the fathers here treat me like their own daughter. This is why I stay. To have someone that fill the emptiness even it is not like what i used to have, I'm glad I'm working here. Because here is home. Home is where family belongs to.