Keep feeding me pain. Shattering my heart more? Oh! I don't have any. Why bother??

Ked Flop just another dandy person.

Still a small voice who love to story-telling but massively change lately.
I no longer finding who's the freaking I am.
I'm Liza and sometimes I'm Ked, and I'm proud whoever I'm is.
P/s: I do not acknowledged any misunderstanding or miss-leading in any posts here. And I do not own any thought or brain. Use your brain wise, shut-up and listen/read more.

ChemOworld

Primary School: Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Seri Indra, Kangar, Perlis.
Secondary School: SMK Syed Hassan, Kangar, Perlis.
Kolej Matrikulasi: Arau, Perlis.
Universiti: UiTM, Arau Perlis. Diploma in Industrial Chemistry (D.I.C.)
Universiti: UiTM, Shah Alam. Bachelor Degree(Honor) Science Chemistry (Forensic Analysis) [update on July 18, 2011]


[Cik Aku sebagai anak jati Peghlih]


Bermulanya kisah chemistry aku:
Masa skolah menengah rendah, eager nyer aku nak jadi lawyer (for some reason =3) tapi masuk saja form 4, aku kena psiko ngan Cikgu Kimia kat skolah, terus saja aku cintakan Kimia....
Ingat lagi masa AGM D.I.C kali pertama, senoir tnya kenapa pilih DIC? aku ngan selamba menjawap, "saya cintakan kimia", hahaha riuh LT malam tu...


Yes! My passion is chemistry, chemicals and chemical equations...that's why I love to do the life-reaction equation.....


Masa kat tuisyen di IKIN, aku ingat kat Cikgu Harun sebab dia sll ambik buku aku masa nak tulis jawapan....Yes, I'm so good in Chemical Reaction Equation....hahahaha....I miss my school life, no pressure, no anything.....just been lovable little El....

Kehidupan kimia Cik Aku:

5 Semester di Arau aku lalui ngan bahagia dan cabaran....Berjumpa ngan kekwan baru tapi tak penah sekali pun aku lupakan kekwn lama aku....tak tau la macam mana depa tu..
Aku jadi OC masa hujung sem part3, dgn itu automatik, Madam Faridah kenal aku.....


Part4, aku assigned jadi class rep yg dedikasi men-forward-kan meseg lecturer, mostly Pn. Faridah, tolong fotostat notes, jadi bendahari, dan macam2 lagi....aku cuba jadi class rep yg baik.....dan aku dah bagikan yg terbaik....
Bila aku dah jadi class rep nie, nama aku agak dikenali oleh lecturer....alhamdulillah...yg tu yg banyak membantu aku sebenarnya....jadi class rep is not that unpleasant....=3


Part5 aku lalui dgn cabaran yg besar, major project. Bagi org dapat AAS satu nikmat yg besar, tapi bagi aku tak......aku paling tak suka nak mendapatkan slope standard supaya 0.9999....ok this one of record...aku penah dapat 0.99999 tapi tu edit....susah.....ada satu masa mmg menitik air mata depan komputer tu....haila...kenangan....tapi Alhamdulillah, I manage to finish my project and jadi class rep lagi.....
Part5 class rep mmg sgt mencabar pada aku...masa nie baru aku nampak perangai bebudak kos aku.....macam2....masa nie jugak la aku selalu terasa hati tapi aku sabarkan hati.....
banyak jugak yg tolong aku...thanks to AKIE, YANA, IZZATI, DILL sebab bnyak tolong aku mengharungi hidup di Arau....


Hah, my living-life masa practikal: Terima kasih bnyk kat Wira, sebab sll chat ngan aku masa aku busan....=3 dan jugak layan otak tak betul aku nie.... 

Sedikit sebanyak rentetan hidup kimia aku....next to come...




[Kehidupan baru di SA] [update July 18, 2011]


Sebelum nie aku ingat merantau tu seronok. Sikit punya happy bila dapat tawaran pi SA. Tapi... Seriously, SA just not my place to behave. Meaning? SA tempat yg crowded, banyak heartless people, tempat yg sebabkan aku demam 3 kali dalam masa 2 bulan. It's not a good sign for my body to caught fever. Badan dan kepala aku mmg tak dapat terima hakikat nie. You might say aku anak manja. Mmg pun dan yg paling pelik, kat sini instinct aku berjalan dgn sgt sempurna. Pelik. Sebelum nie aku seorg yg logik. Tak percaya sgt bila org cakap instinct2 nie. Tapi kat sini macam berguna.


A few weeks menjejak kaki, dah kena sound ngan drive bas dgn gelaran "lembap". Baiklah pak cik, sy budak U yg lembap, sy hormat pak cik bawak bas sebb nak cari rezeki halal jadi sy harapkan pak cik pun hormat saya dtg berjihad kat sini nak cari Ilmu. Tapi takyah la. Org kat sini tak pikir hati org lain. Semua Selfish. No offense. Aku sgt terasa ngan org sini. Sebab: Aku sambut bagai nak rak org dari sini bila diaorg datang Perlis, tapi bila aku sampai kat sana, org yg aku sambut tu, batang hidung pun tak nampak. Takut agaknya lepas dapat mesej aku sampai SA. Hahaha...pathetic. 


Tu tak termasuk rasa terhina sebb dipandang rendah KP sendiri. Real on El. First time aku rasa, BI sgt diagungkan di sini. Jadi jgn salahkan aku bila aku tgh memperkasakan English aku. I need it. Jgn bimbang. BM is my native language. BM tetap di hati, tp BI perlu untuk ketahanan diri.


July 18, 2011. Aku tgh bercuti. Akan masuk semula ke sana on September. Jadi! Berusahalah Ked!! 

October 29, 2011. Lebih kurang genap 2 bulan masuk balik ke UITM Shah Alam. Apa yg boleh dirumuskan buat masa  la nie; Aku tak sabar nak balik Raya Haji. Ada lebih kurang seminggu lagi. Wahai Nur Saliza Awatif, sila bertahan sehingga tarikh tersebut... *sigh*

November 5, 2011 tiba. Ganbatte Ked!!  

April 25, 2012. 12.17am. Finally Cik Aku update something. Heee... tetiba excited nak update ChemOWorld nie. Okeh, sem nie dah masuk semester 4 atau bebudak UITM kata Part 4 la senang cerita. Sem nie dah start buat proposal untuk FYP. Ingat gaya tak sibuk sebab tulah Cik Aku pi jadi AJK MELATI(Kolej Kediaman) kat Shah Alam, sekali nak kata bukan saja tak boleh nak study even weekend but barely can't sleep jugak. Parah, parah. Tapi nasib baik jugak la masih lagi boleh perform dalam test(Ss) dan quizzes. Fuhh.... Gaya cakap berayat-ayat dgn lajunya. Owh! La nie tgh ber-mid-break di rumah... bersama kerja-kerja dan homework yg tak dilupakan pentingnya, dan test untuk core code sebaik saja pulang dari Perglih. Jadi, Ked! Kuatkanlah minda dan fizikal anda. Things getting harder than you think BUT never beyond your ability. Tu yg dijanjikan Allah s.w.t. Percaya pada-NYA, InshaAllah semua akan baik.

May 5, 2012. 9.07am. Weekend nie adalah weekend saya~ Yay~~~ Finally, I have time to concentrate on my FYP proposal. Cewah~ Niatnya begitu lah... Semoga boleh siap dgn jaya hendakNYA. Amin...  Oh! Cik Aku mcm kena insomnia pulak 2,3 mlm nie. Kalau tiduq sekali pun, rumate Cik Aku sll kata aku nie active sleep-talker, "You talking in your sleep again,  and I can tell you all the bait, Ked"  

-.-lll How not to talk in sleep? and freak them in the middle of night? 

May 7, 2012. 10.26am. Rajin bebenor pulak Cik Aku Update ChemOworld nie. Org dah siap second draft la katakan hehehe.... Minggu nie Cik Aku isytiharkan minggu lapang sedunia sbb minggu nie lab mostly dah habih, test ada satu saja I'Allah, 2nd draft pun dah siap... Cuma nak tumpu kepada 6 report yg belum bersentuh lagi... Begitu lah setiap sem, report mau bertangguh jugak. Yelah, dah tak macam part bawah2 dulu, report sem nie memerlukan komitmen sekurang-kurang 2 hari setiap repor untuk disiapkan. 2 jam tak cukup, cukup takat bukak manual lepas tu tutup manual.... Kira a weekend is for a report. Sebab tulah berkali-kali jugak cik aku tegaskan bahwa, sem nie, hidup hanya berkisarkan code CHM580 dan semua yang berkaitan termasuk lab report... Oh, CHM580, sy berchenta dengan awak jelah sem nie... Good Luck, Ked!! Siapkan report cepat! 

May 11,2012. Terima kasih sebab tarik selera makan saya. Terima kasih sebab buatkan saya down. Terima kasih sbb buatkan saya ingat yang saya bukan sapa-sapa kepada sesiapa pun. 
:)

May 12, 2012. Hari ke-2 practicing futsal. Yeah!! Forget all the shit thing and just run for the ball. I don't really can connect between a ball and relieve of feeling afterward. Sungguh! I do the archery, but somehow masa tarik bow 20 kg tersebut, masalah macam berulang-ulang depan mata dan endup tak kena papan tu. Alasan kan? haha... Main bola? Ramai2 ligan bola, gelak2 dgn member2, jatuh2 sebab bertolak atau sebab bola tu jugak... bagi satu essential feeling of relieve umpama lepak di rooftop S&T sambil tgk bulan (malangnya 2,3 malam nie, langit gelap). Macam tulah... So, bola is the way to relieve something we kept inside. 







May 26, 2012. Malam ke-2 tinggai sorang2. I should go home instead. This is frustrating.  Miss Mom, Home and all :'(

June 30, 2012. A month. Lebih. Oh. June 29 passed was my birthday. A birthday celebration far from home... Rite... Not as much as I felt at home, but yeah I'm surviving. And. I just post 'cubaan pertama' on fiction writing. Click this to read. And. I'm in the middle of final examination mode. Wish ME LUCK~ ;) 


 July 6, 2012. 8.30am-11.30am. LAW520. Paper law kali pertama, resulting awesome answering. Apa punya ayat hang guna Ked? Haha Senang cerita, Allah s.w.t. bagi Cik Aku kelapangan dada jawap soklan2 tu semua. Alhamdulillah... another 2 killer papers. All the best, Ked! You need that ;)
yup! always~

August 30, 2012. Ha ah! It's been awhile. Baru teringat nak update nie. Busy dgn kenduri kahwin Incik Big Bro. Tahniah Big Bro. Semoga kekal bahagia sehingga ke syurga. Amin.... Sama2 lah kita doakan... Jadi esok Malaysia akan sambut Hari Kemerdekaan yang ke-55. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MALAYSIA!! :) Bercakap pasai kemerdekaan, Cik Aku ter-volunteer-kan diri menolong kanak2 kampung buat sambutan; melatih menyanyi dan menjahit beberapa helai baju merdeka. Seronok layan kanak2 yang semangat sambut merdeka, dari pagi sampai petang, rehearsal lagu, semangat ja, tak sapa kata letih pun. Dengan Cik Aku skali sugar-high hehehe.... Jadi, tadi dan jugak buat interview kat beberapa org budak2, apa maksud kemerdekaan bagai depa. Tergejut. Terharu. Sebab bila Cik Aku buat sesi macam nie dgn member2, they tend to laugh. Dah besaq kononnya, who cares about merdeka anymore kan? I'll post some answer later. Jadi skali lagi, 

SALAM KEMERDEKAAN YANG KE-55! 
Saya bangga menjadi rakyat Malaysia!
:)

December 7, 2012. More than 2 months. I'm still alive, living my study, FYP and still bragging proudly. And just a 'bit' tired and feeling pathetic. People actually misunderstood everytime I said 'pathetic'. I'm mentioning bout myself in a way to motivate. You know how these split personality works, here and there, the nice-sarcastic-guy vs  nice-innocent-guy. Yes! I'm bragging again hahaha... *sigh* Jadi... Ada lagi exactly 2 weeks untuk kuliah, then study week, my FYP is still on progress but Alhamdulillah... whats left are instruments and predicting data... Moga dimudahkan segala urusan, and as Muslim, lets us pray for Palestine and our relative there...





December 10, 2013. Update dari bilik housemate, Si Nana muahahahaha... Ok. Cheq pinjam laptop beliau sat aaa... Just a very very short update, which I would like to tell that I'm working right now and not that busy to update blog but restricted internet excess that cause me not to update this page frequently. Oh wow~~~ tak hilang lagi cakap senafas nie hehehe That is it. I AM WORKING! Yeah!! Excited tak habih lagi since baru 2 bulan keja, this week gonna be the 9th week of working. Gambatte, Ked!!! Wish me lucks. I need them!


October 14, 2014. Record after 10 months and now I'm updating this page. Again. Busy. That's not it. But seriously I'm pretty much fuck-up with works and stuff. Seriously guys... If you have no strength at all, do not try to step in this so called private company, even the salary offered would like make you rich in a few years but at the same time will make you old bout 10 years hahaha No. I'm not joking. At all. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, I'm pretty mush sure if I do step in Goverment soon, gua confirm busan sampai habih semua extinct kutu2 jalan dan rayau hehe Kalau sebelum nie gua sembang pasai kimia and stuff and now is the time gua sembang pasai dunia pekerjaan, don't you think? 

  1. Work is not fun at all.
  2. You don't really get what ever you imagine you will work with. Real life don't work that way. So, don't keep your small brain in a BOX, ok?
  3. Whatever bad habit you getting while you're studying; leave it!! Real working life don't work that way. Especially when you're working in private sector.
  4. You have no time for yourself or even for your love one. But please make sometime for your family ;)
  5. Good things working in private sector, you seriously polish all stuff or talent you have like talking, communication, mostly how to make sure you reach the target.
  6. Another good thing but I shall say it AWESOME thing is i can wear SNEAKERS pipel, no such thing like formal here. Jeans and t-shirt everyday. I have lost count on my sneakers now haha
  7. Else: the salary, people. The salary. Enough say to make me stay. Might be my 1st company to work with but this is the company with the higher offer. So, I don't really get it when people whining about 1st job salary is not enough, because it more than enough for me ;)
There. Good things lose but I'm staying since the the people there is pretty much awesome. Although they're awesome but when working, some of them so much like a needle in meat. Heh. So I'm staying. If I can survive in this part of my life, I'm surviving the whole of my life to come. Gambatte!!

July 1, 2015. One word: Struggling. After 19 months and I finally released from my comfort zone staying in Validation. I used term 'released'. Why? There's no thrill, no adrenalin rush, no challenge that really get my nerve staying in Validation Project. Cepat la kita rasa bosan kan? Bosan is not the right word. Sekarang kita dah transfer pi manufacturing floor. Challenge & I need something to boost my self esteem back to normal state. I'm in learning curve. Again. And Struggling. Again. Let's grow. Again. Yosh!! 

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Ked Flop
kthanxbai

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2 comments:

along said...

assalam...tumpang tanya kt akk leh.. sbb sye stdnt yg br msok kos mcm akk... so nk tny ad x blog2 kwn2 akk ke yg da jd forensik.. maaflah klu nmpk cam xde kaitan tp klo bley nk mntk tolong mne tau ad kwn2 akak da kje forensik or further study dlm kos forensik...tq kak...

Liza@El@KedFlop said...

yg betul dah jadi forensist batch Saya ada dalam 8 orang, tapi sorg berenti sebb pi further study kat US - Master in forensic, another 3 of them memang tgh further master in local universities. sorry to say but none of them actually have blog. they have twitter and what so on but never blog. sorry couldn't help much ;)

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