Ked's Weather Forecast: The one your feed?

Hi! Assalamualaikum!

A few more minutes and everyone will update: Rumah terbuka Hari Raya ke-17...

Nah. I'm being skeptical. Again.
That's not the point. I'm just too used with phrase, 'Sarcastic 1st, greeting letter'.

Selamat Hari Raya, dear bloggers, everyone, anyone!!

Nothing much to say just another #myWisdomWords again. Again.

Tweet Saying

The answer is always the option/choice you keek feed with. 

Kthanxbai

KF
I doubt anyone would understand my thought. Well that anyone don't have to.

Ked's Weather Forecast: 6 Reasons Not to Quit Your Freaking Job

6 Reasons Not to Quit Your Freaking Job


1. To lazy to update resumé

Credit to Grandpa Google

I have being not updating my resume since 3-4 months ago. At that moment it was because I had this one huge fight with my freaking boss and I almost give in and punch her face. But no, I didn't and still acted civil but after I start to updating my resumé and email to every vacant positions I found in Jobstreet. It was a short released to tell my own self that I have other options but I chose to be here. I chose to be here. Why would I snap and run away? So I stay..... since there is no calls from others company or maybe, just maybe my salary is just too high for them to accept (Hye, I'm one of the SME: Subject-Matter-Expect, so I have to keep my standard high) or probably I'm just a noob  (with 1 year & 7 months experience) in industry. But then what's with this 'experience thingy requirement' by the way? So the point is, I just stay and lucky me; my boss leave me alone after the freaking fight. Yeah. It is stupid when you wanna leave this kind of well developed company just because you can't stand your boss. And beside, I'm seriously too lazy to update my resume.

2. The 'Anxiety' of starting all over again

That one feeling when you have to start all over again in a new place, with new people and environment. How to adapt? What's is my new freaking boss be like? Are the colleagues as much as fun and crazy like my previous company? How long I will stand to be here if I'm always run away? It's a mix feeling of guilty and at the same time, you don't want to deal with it. Currently, every inch of the plantation know who's freaking I am and it wouldn't took much time to deal with them. So I figured, I hate to repeat all over tedious things being  a  new employee and enjoy this moment and anxiety-free.

3. Family and friends

"How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got? Everything I went through, you were standing there by my side - Wiz Khalifa"
My mom got this silly thought I'm doing great working here. Well.... I did. But that's not the freaking point. The point is she made my late grandpa made me to sealed a promise; not leaving the job I have now. And the only person I never say no to is him. That's a weak reason to begin. But he meant a lot to me, every gestures, every words, every smiles he rarely commit. I miss him damn much.
On the hand, my friends; they're would love if I quit since I barely have time with them (pipel... I will always make time for you ok?) and because I once admitted to hospital because of stress. I blame my self. I have friends and family and yet I had found no solution to reduce but just to bottled up everything inside. Should I whining and complaint more? Hahaha *listing down names to whining-&-complaint session*

4. The Food

This is another weak reason. The foods awesome eventhough I had them enough. Where else would I eat if I'm working like 12 hours and just to go home to sleep? And why you sarcastically insult youself, Ked? A weak point.

5. Working attire

Oh ho. This is the strongest among strongest point. I should make this the 1st reason instead. But nah. You guys got the idea by the way. It's freaking jeans, t-shirt and sneakers/boots attite for the whole day/weeks/months/years. I'm counting my shoes. Wow! We can have our own shoes outlet now.

6. Colleague

There's always a very fine line between family and strangers. I must 190% agree with this. Here I have a few of colleagues, that act like a father to me. It's a big deal? For me? Yes. I just lost my grandpa a couple months ago and he's the only my old good man I had. But then all the fathers here treat me like their own daughter. This is why I stay. To have someone that fill the emptiness even it is not like what i used to have, I'm glad I'm working here. Because here is home. Home is where family belongs to.


Ktanxbai
Ked Flop

Ked's Weather Forecast 2015: #3 Wordless Wednesday

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Ked Flop

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Ked's Weather Forecast 2015: #2 Wordless Wednesday

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Ked Flop

Ked's Weather Forecast 2015: #1

Oh Hi!

Again after a couple of month of disappeared and come back again. What a life lahnkan, Liza?

Yup! What a life...

Owh. Gua janjikan short drabble as wedding gift to my newly-wed friends; Nawana, Che Ma and a few more. Nanti kire post ea kawan2, ada nak edit sikit2 so that kanak2 18tahun boleh baca. 18 tahin tu kanak2 lagi ke Liza ooooi?

Well.... me at that age still a kid not even a teenager to begin lagi. Akil baligh to me very slow. Real slow like pergerakkan batu di gurun... (kehyperbolaan kemelampaun). Don't mind the language.  I'm speaking human with slightly nonsense slang again. Well.... blame puberty..? Hahaha Nah... I just chose to keep my mind young fresh. Might take a couples more years to change the mind state... Mungkin...

About le drabble guys.... I'll post real soon.... might be a couple of month to come? Hahaha nope. I'll try my best since it is hard to write to suit their personality with my bipolar problem yet the time district.  Banyak alasan... Well.... it's adult job to give excuses kan? I'm I right? No. Am I not wrong??

Okeh. Done with sarcastic greeting. Now it's time to wish,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015!!

And talk about new year resolution... Let's not make new resolutions since I have like more than 20 pending resolutions for passed 6 years... hahaha

Just wanna pass these few realistic resolutions:

• Exercise 1 hour per day
• Go home early
• Read more
• Travelling once a year
• Keep lots of money
• Post something on blog.

That's it. I passed on of the resolutions just now: Post something on blog. Ho yeah!!

That does it. Another short update. More to come. InsyaAllah.

Kthanxbai
Ked Flop le Flower Pot
* Read book for your mind. Your mind stop working when you're stop reading.
** Have another great year, fella! Let's fight together!  Yosh!!

Ked's Weather Forecast #10

Hi.... again.
After a long silent and missing-in-action, there's always Hi greeting from so called Ked Flop le Merepeking. Because when I don't write is the time I'm actually is not in emotionally stable.

So I write and I read. The sensation of reading is something I can explain; learn new things, new cultures and even languages. So people, please read.

Ada this one philosopher said (I don't remember the name); "A house without a book is not even a house to call."

Nie pasai apa pulak budak nama tak betui dia Ked Flop duk merepek pasai membaca buku pulak  nie?
Suka hati gua lah, gua mampu hahahahaha

It's my part of social responsible, like I did in some post; Donate Blood, giving awareness about Dyslexia Disorder and other stuff. Because I can tell people and of cause I will tell people so that dumb people is not forever dumb and stupid who's want to argue will be forever stupid. Yeah. I'm in so called sarcastic mode tonight.

Yeah. So lets us drop the dumb and stupid thing because that's only the acknowledgement.

1. Congratulation to me for my 1st year of working anniversary.
2. Congratulation to for stay and strong there.
3. Congratulation to me to finally say NO to something that insignificant to my life.
4. Congratulation to me to finally realize alone is not lonely.
5. Congratulation to me to finally free from heart-hurt feeling.

Yay!! Selepas setahun baru nak bernafas balik.
For those people I'd hurt, I'm sorry. Please to know that I'm learning to not hurt people or myself. So lets us help each other.

That's it. Another short short update.
Till the next post? Might be another 2, 3 months? Hope so.


Kthanxbai
Ked Flop
*Gila bawak balik keja tapi dok buat gila update blog pulak
**Don't stress yourself pipel. Stress is no good for health nor brain.

Raya Post #1

Oh hai!

It's being awhile? Agaklah... haha talk about half-hearted person when doing something that not-that-important. It's me ;p

Jadi dah berapa hari beraya? 11 days? Jadi masih lagi dalam mood raya lah kita kan?  I do!! I do do do do do dodol~ Don't mind the sentence, I'm le merepeKing, remember? Haha

Jadi saya, Ked Flop bukan nama sebenarnya ingin menyusun sepuluh jadi dan 26 keypads, mengucapkan

SELAMAY HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI KEPADA MUSLIMIN MUSLIMAT, BLOGGERS, TWEETERIANS, FBookers and else.
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (Andai ada, mana tau dok touching lebih2 bila singgah bloh saya lah kan?)

Here we go: done wishing all Happy Eid Fitri now we'll go to the main dish.

Orang kata (orang kata okey, bukan gua yang kata), "you'll make the worst speech ever while mad" dan "You'll make an impossible promise when you're happy" tapi orang lupa nak kata nie (okeh, yang nie memang gua yang kata);

You'll simply accept an offer of happiness even it is not last when you're sad.

Sapa setuju? Kalau tak paham boleh google translate ;)

Nie hanya pendapat, gua bukanlah sorg yang demokrasi tapi sebenarnya pemerintah kuku besi.
I don't own your brain, oleh itu; saya bertanggungjawab ke atas apasaja post dalam nie tapi atas apa yang anda paham, itu tanggungjawab sendiri.

It's hard to say something out loud when we realized people would misunderstand everything. My wavelength of thought always far away than ordinary people I met. To share something is hard. To ask for opinion even harder.

So... that it, another insecurity reveal.

You don't even know that's insecurity?

That's why I say my wavelength of thought is different.

I can tell people's insecurity by their post, their words even their selca pictures.

So next time, careful.  People might know who you are or it is what you want? To people know you morw than people should know?

Apa gua merepek nie?

Okeh. Almost 11. Kena balik dulu.
To the next post I guess.


Kthanxbai
Ked Flop

*Merepek dari Kedai Makan Wani sebab gua sangat jemu dok rumah.
**So I figured, I should stay longer di pejabat so that I can just sleep at home. Tak jemu tapi letih. Oklah tu.

Ked's Weather Forecast #9 : Nasi Ayam Geng Micasa

Oh hai!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

It's almost iftar time. So, Happy Iftar to all muslims.

Jadi ini hanya very short update for today and I'm suppose to update everyday. Kononnya lah haha.

So.... Here we go again, Ramadhan day 8. Nothing much happen, really.  Just us, Geng Micasa memasak untuk makan bersama untuk iftar. Ok. Mak Cik owner rumah sewa nak buat kenduri semperna Puasa (that's what she's claimed) tapi untuk buat kelainan, she makes us (Nana, Kael, Kakak, Kak Jiah and me of cause) cooking... laugh and claps pipel cause US seriously cooking hahahaha


Jadi menu kita adalah Nasi Ayam Geng Micasa.

Pembahagian tugas berlangsung secara naturalnya. Yang pandai masak nasi, memasak nasi, yang pandai operate ayam dan marinade, did the task awesomely (cewah~~ acara Narcissist kita sentiasa akan berlangsung muahaha), yang memasak sup jugak did an awesome job.

JOM TEPUK TANGAN RAMAI-RAMAI!!!


Jadi, I'll put the recipe we used here. Kalau bak kata gua sendiri, kami main campak-campak jelah tapi ada le housemate called for advise from mom and of cause we google some stuff and do some mix and match from here and there. Nak bagi kredit for some blogs but then they are too many so.... whoever yang ada resepi nasi ayam dalam blog hampa, sila bangga that we might used your recipes here:

Nasi Ayam Geng Micasa!

Bahan-bahannya:
Ayam semestinya...
Bawang besar
Bawang putih
Halia
Kicap manis
Kicap masin
Lada hitam
Kiub pati ayam
Daun Sup

Beras
Buah pala
Bunga lawang
Bawang putih
Marjerin

Cili besar
Cili melaka
Bawang putih

*Portion untuk setiap bahan jgn tanya sebab memang kami agak-agak lepas la untuk 2 ekoq ayam.

Prosedur Memasak:

1. Apa-apa pun mesti start dengan ayam sebab kita nak guna air rebusan untuk ke semua bahan yang kita nak masak. Jadi kami blend halia, bawang putih dan bawang besaq untuk bahan perapan selama 1 jam sebelum ayam tu kita rebus.
2. Jadi air rebusan ayam tadi kami bahagikan untuk masak nasi, buat sup dan jugak buat sos. Sekali lagi, gua tak boleh nak mention portion dia kat sini sebab kami memang main campak-campak. 
3. Untuk nasi, Kael tumis bawang putih, bunga lawang dan buah pala sehingga berbau wangi, lepas tu masukkan ke dalam periuk nasi yang dah pun dia letak beras dan air rebusan ayam.
4. Untuk ayam pulak, lepas rebus sejat sekejap untuk keringkan ayaq. Kemudian, Nana tumbukkan sikit halia dan bawang putih sebelum gaul sekali dengan kicap manis, kicap masin dan sikit lada hitam. Since we start cooking early, jadi ayam tu terperam lebih dari 2 jam. That's is why lah kut rasanya awesome. Jadi lebih lama anda peram, lagi mesra rasa bahan perap dengan ayam tu. Lepas peram, kami panggang dalam Magic Cooker sampai kaler ayam jadi chocolate golden. Very nice colour eventually ;)
5. Untuk sup, Kael guna air rebusan yang sama jugak tapi gua tambah sup bunjut dan 1 1/2 kiub pati ayam. Walaupun some blogs said takyah letak sup bunjut dah tapi... since we already bought the bunjut, we just add in it la. Panaskan sampai mendidih sebelum the last touch of adding salt and daun sup.
6. Untuk sos merah dan kicap pulak; biar gua terang pasai sos merah dulu sebab steps dia quite tedious. 1st sekali, guna balik ayaq perapan ayam yang mula-mula mention dalam step #1. Tumis ayaq perapan tu sekali dengan blended of cili(cabai) besaq dan cabai melaka. Tumis sampai pecah minyak dan kemudian tambah 2 camca(sudu) besar sos tomato dan 1 camca cuka dan panaskan sebentar sebelum masukkan sedikit sup untuk banyakkan portion dan garam secukup rasa. Hah! Jangan lupa letak gula secukup rasa jugak. Untuk balance kan rasa, bak kata Nana ;)
7. Untuk sos kicap pulak; yang nie paling senang. Portion cabai melaka ikut kepedasan, bawang putih pun ikut selera anda, kicap masin dan kicap manis. 1st, bakaq bawang putih (by mean; goreng tanpa minyak sehingga berbau sikit. 2nd, blend sekali dengan cabai melaka dan sup sehingga hancur sebati. Kemudian, masukkan kicap manis dan masin ikut selera. Siap sudah sos kicap kita....

Dan sebenarnya siap sudah Nasi Ayam Geng Micasa:

TADA!!

Don't mind the preference since we had no enough bowl to fill in.

Keseronokkan duduk di rumah sewa yang penghuninya jugak semuanya ohsem, I might stay here like a very long time. Staying here make me feel like I have 5 sisters all together. Tak tau macam mana rasa sebenaqnya ada sisters... but I like it now and I want 'this' forever. Mampukah?? Soalan yang gua memang tak boleh jawab pun kan....

Ked talks about sisters again haha

Till the next post. I guess.  InsyaAllah.

Ked Flop
Kthanxbai
* Suppose to be a very short update.... but then.... it a recipe.
** Resipi nie nampak tak lengkap sebab tak mention portion to each ingredients tp I'm sincerely say sorry since we did campak-campak saja semua bahan, ikut lepas 2 ekoq ayam lah kiranya. Tapi rasanya kalau orang yang baru nak blajaq masak macam gua, baik blajaq campak-campak dulu sebab restrictions (portion utk memasak) tu akan menyebabkan kreativiti anda terhad dan akhirnya neuron-neuron dalam otak anda tidak akan bertindak balas secara optimum. If you get what I'm trying to say lah kan. Yes. I'm still a sarcastic.
*** And yes. Again, judgement is allowed. I don't own your thought or brain (I'm not brain-eating zombie, TQ), so please generate your brain to jugde.

Ked's Weather Forecast #8

A forever rebounder. In any way rebound. Heh.

Sigh. Yes. A dry loud sigh. And a smirk.

What did I do wrong when everytime it is, I'm turn out to be  a rebounder? ?

Kita merungut ka? Ya. I'm actually tired to be a second guessing, choices, trust like I don't deserve.

Either it is love life, living life, working or whatsoever, will ME ever be the 1 person they had in mind? Will they thought of me when they're happy rather when they're had problem?

Why me? Out of all pipel, why me?

Don't you think I feel sick to to just hear all the problems?
Don't you think that I also have my own damn problems?
Don't you ever think that the happy me is actualy the sad me?
You don't.  You'll never do.

Heh.

This should be a happy Ramadhan to me. Yes, it is. But being hurt in any way?
Heh.

You. I know you don't care about me, because when I say leave, you just left. Why don't you ask me, why I asked you to leave??

Now now Liza, lets us just focus on Ramadhan kareem now?
Yes.
It is Allah that will listen and it is a month of promising. Let alone the guy and just focus on our ibadah now.

Kita melankolia sorg2 pun apa faedah? Cinta manusia bukannya pasti tapi Cinta Illahi tu yang hakiki. Sebab tu lah apa2 pun nawaitu kita tu yang penting.

Nawaitu. Niat. Motif dalam bahasa undang2.

Again. What it is to you to live in this world?
1. To be rich.
2. To be awesomely brilliant.
3. To live with someone you love for the rest of life.
4. Or to life in nawaitu that every steps that we take is for Allah, every breath we inhale is for HIM and that everything happen to us is the best plan from HIM?

Tapi.... Do #4 is ever be our choice now?

Tepuk dada, tanya Iman. Apa khabar Iman kita bila #4 langsung tidak tersenarai?

Ramadhan day 5. Masih jauh lagi diri dengan Illahi sedangkan rahmatnya besar tiba di bulan mulai nie. Antara sedat tak sedar, duniawi tu yang dikejar, tapi akhirat hanya cukup syarat.



To the next Ramadhan post. InsyaAllah.


Ked Flop
Kthanxbai
*Liza melankolia tahap tak hingat tapi tu hanya drabble semata-mata.
**Crita ini tiada kaitan dengan yang masih hidup atau mati.
***Still. Judging is allowed. I don't any of your s thought. So let them judges by mean they actually think.
****Yes. I'm been sarcastic again, thank you.

SALAM RAMADHAN ALMUBARAK

Ked's Weather Forecast #7

Redup cuaca seharian

It's Sunday!!! Suppose to be a sun day but  I guess no, since we're having a cloudy day.

So, macam biasa, woke up early (that's disturbing since today is weekend and the only day I had, to sleep over day (kononnya) but I don't), sidai baju dulu, pastu sapu2 sampah, lipat2 baju and masak untuk breakfast. Dalam tengah hari lebih kurang pkl 12 tgh hari kluaq dengan housemate ke Tesco, dengan perancangan membeli barang persiapan untuk upcoming Ramadhan, counting days. Eventually 7 days from today. Dah tak lama lagi, so puasa tahun pertama sebagai seorang pekerja swasta yang sibuk dan kalut dan bergaya macam akan berbukak kat kilang ja nanti? Hopefully tidak lah kan....

So here we go again; it's me is too workaholic? Or it's just me trying to run away from life reality or love reality. Haha. Lets say it is because of the second option. My option to be busy. My option to not think of any insignificant, irrelevant matter that would only be in my way, in any way. My option to only focus on myself.

Yeah. Liza is a bit melancolia these few days. Judgemental is allowed, please.... I do own this page but I don't own your thought or brain.

Today's forecast: it's freaking sweaty hot even it is cloudy all day long. And I'm still folding my clothes. This hotness make me slower than ever.

"A word is just a word till you meant whay you said."

 So, that's it. Another short short post.  To the next post.

Kthaxbai

Ked Flop
*kipas atas kepala tapi peluh meleleh-leleh macam bangla binaan buat keja binaan tu.
**Salam pre-Ramadhan. puada dah habih ganti? Kalau belum, bawak2 berganti ;)

Ked's Weather Forecast #6

So here we are again. So, I'm going to start the Wheather Forecast. Again. Hahahaha This time fot real, Ked? We'll try Liza, we'll try ;p

So how was today? Ohsem? Great? Good? So-so? Fuck-I-Don't-Give-A-Damn?

Mine was great except for healhty condition which less than typical me who can be like; very talk active and move a lot me?

Gua demam since Monday, so now it's like almost a week. Blame the wheather for some pipel but to tell the truth it is because what I kept inside. Fuck.

Yeah. That's should describe everything and what's make me more sick is I can't even tell the reader what it is because this is my damn secret. Secret? Are you sure, Ked? Because you told Mr Bie-bie already. Yeah. The one and only boy I had as my bro-sis complex relation. Well, at least he's there to listen even he's like to membetalk Hahhaha

So, we go back to weather forecast. It is damn hot. Like hot hot. Must be the climax changes. Kipas atas kepala tapi berpeluh basah baju lagi nie haha

No. We're not talking about weather here, it's about me. It's my page for god sake. But then judgment is allowed since it isn't, you guy still judge for whatever you believe. Don't like cause I'll do the same.

So, I'm not so productive today. Being sick and stay at home and had to consume the medicine? I prefer work. Because when I busy, I don't think about other insignificant thing like LOVE. Since then, I heard about love, I'm already in huge mess. So, fuck off LOVE because le heart of mine is lock down for no other heart or what so ever feeling.

Ked would say I'm living with deny because she's not the one who held le heart. It's so fragile that might break even with a light touch.

I'd lost the privileged to LOVE once, and now I holding back the privilege to restrict my own heart.

Jadi summary untuk hari nie?

I don't do LOVE.
I still hate engineers (some of them)
Don't try to touch my heart if you don't mean to stay.

And owh. I'm gping to start with Ked's puasa Diari. Soon.


To the next entry? I guest.


Kthanxbai
*esok keje wei...
**tetiap hari OT nie... x reti nak rasa penat ka? *shrug*

2 in 1 - Episod Liza Vs Ked

2 in 1

Liza : Lunch! Muahahaha The best break of the day. Cewah. Tapi  yang dimakannya aiskrim?
Ked : Eh??? Apakah la wei? Have the real lunch la wei~~
Liza : Biarlah... Aku makan sorang-sorang ja, tu yang makan aiskrim tu... Sobs.
Ked : Apa pulak sorang? Aku kan ada.
Liza : O.O? Hang memang sedaq hang tu ada dalam kepala aku ja kan??
Ked : Aaaa........
Liza : Hurm. Dah dah. Satgi orang ingat aku gila cakap sorang-sorang. *Nomming eskrim vanilla skop dengan bahagianya*

P/s: A loner always a loner until he/she meet another loner?? Heh. I don't know. And I like to be alone ;)

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Kurung dan Heels?

Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Hambuih hantu mana pulak buat kacau siang-saing buta nie?? Dia kaleh belakang. Eh? Hantu pakai baju kurung? Heels?? Tudung litup?? Eh?? Kawan aku?? Matanya memanah muka Vi. Terkebil sebentar.

"Hang awat, Ayie? Macam nampak hantu ja nie?"

Diam. Masih menhadam soalan. Dahi berkerut. Dan akhirnya menerima kenyataan bahawa; Vi memakai baju kurung dan heels.

"Nah nie, ritu hang pesan jeruk Penang. Aku balik dulu." Apa kena dengan budak tu sorang? Nak kata kena sampuk..... Mengaleh ke belakang, melihat kawa dia yang masih terkaku.

"Wassup Vi?" Tegur Rash yang masuk ke dalam studio. "Vi?" Juga berkerut mukannya. Matanya mengikut arah gerak Vi.

"Gua balik dulu. Melekit nieh." Kata Vi sebelum berlalu pergi. Hanya mengangguk. 0_0

"Dude! Dia pakai baju kurung?" Rash menoleh ke arah Ayie yang terkaku. Ayie memandang dia blur. " Dude!! Vi pakai heels!!" Kali nie bertambah seoktaf suaranya. Kemudian bermuka blur.

Ayie mengeluh. Dramatik betul.

"Dude!" Rash mengoncang bahu Ayie yang masih lagi diam seolah mengejutkan dia dari tidur.

"I know. I know. Aku pun trauma."

Giliran Rash pula yang terkebil. Trauma? Kebenda dia cakap? Apasal nak trauma tengak Vi dress up macam tu??

"Dude, kau nampak Vi ke hantu? Apahal nak trauma??"

Eh??? Pasai apa??

..............................................

P/s: Drabble heels dan bau kurung. It's a cliche.

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Update dari laptop Kak Anis. Nur Saliza Awatif aka Ked Flop, mengarut dari lab research BSK 4 ;3


TQ.

Ramadan di mana dirimu??

Assalamualaikum....

Jadi... Soalan tu?
Ya, Ramadhan di mana dirimu?

Keras kah hati bila tak rasa nikmat puasa?
Setakat menahan mulut, telinga dan mata, cukupkah?
Mana rasa eksitet??

Tanya Iman, sebab la nie masa yang sesuai.
Kalau bulan-bulan sebelumnya mungkin kita kata terangtai dgn bisikan syaitan, tapi...
Adakah masih bisikan syaitan ini? Di bulan Allah janjikan untuk umatnya?
Mana salahnya...?
Kosong.
Kosong
dan masih kosong....

Bulan ibadat, bukan bulan nie saja. Setiap bulan, setiap masa, setiap sedutan udara tu adalah ibadat kita kerana Allah taala.

Diari Ramadhan yang ke-15: Mencari Ramadhan.



Ked Flop
*pencari jalan-NYA

#lostcount job hunting & dyslexia kid

Assalamualaikum.

Ramadan is coming.
And I'm in job hunting mode.

I had finished my internship on last 24th June and now just helping Pn Mama with jahit-ing tempahan baju raya.

Lagi...
Tengah buat tuisyen. Ajar budak2 sekolah rendah & menengah. Adalah 2,3 org since it is private tuition.
Jadi I have this one kid, selepas dirujuk dengan psychologists, dia adalah salah sorang daripada kanak2 disleksia
Pernah dengar perkataan 'Disleksia' @ 'Dyslexia'??
Cik Aku pernah post pasal disleksia tak lama dulu: Disleksia.

Jadi ada sorang budak perempuan nie, umurnya dah 10 tahun tapi not able to read fluently in Malay dan follow the instruction, stutter and lost focus everytime I have my eyes on others. Jadi bagi kanak2 yang lain tu, perkara tu menganggu diaorg untuk belajar sbb Cik Aku fokus lebih pada that girl. Jadi I changed my schedule on her. I teach her alone for extras time. Selepas 3 minggu pemerhatian dan dengan pertolomgam dari kawan Cik Aku yang jugak sorang Psychologist, jadi kami syak dia ada masalah disleksia. Jadi sekarang mulalah pembelajaran secara telus dengan kanak2 sorang nie. Serius cakap memang boleh hilang sabar dengan budak sorang nie sbb dia jugak sorang yang degil. She's object everything sometime hahahaha

Tapi ingat2 balik, Cik Aku yang nak mengajar dia. Her parent dah berserah sepenuhnya. Tak tau nak kata apa, sbb iaorang tak terdedah dengan perkara2 macam nie. Tak boleh nak salahkan sapa2 dalam nie, sebab takda media pun yang menyampai tentang perkara nie.

Jadi, Cik Aku pun tertanya lah.... Takda ka badan atau pergerakkan yang aktif untuk membantu kanak2 nie, sebab I can't walk alone and clueless pasal benda nie.

Google search 'Disleksia di Malalysia' tp yang keluarnya hanya statistik dan rancangan kerajaan membantu kanak2 disleksia. Jadi? Hanya rancangan saja? Dan post tu usianya 2009. Macam mana tu.

45k kanak2 disleksia dikesan dan diakui kewujudan mereka tp yang tak dikesan dan diakui nie, macam mana?

I'm care, but clueless.

Jadi Cik Aku masih lagi dalam perjalanan mencari kerja walaupun belum graduated secara rasmi.
Doakan usaha nie.
Dan SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK.



Ked Flop
kthanxbai

Do you?

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I guest everythings happen have their own reason...

Ked Flop

*Sigh

Truth

Which branch shall I climb??

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Ked Flop

*should I future study?

forever mom's baby girl

I guess what I want to think about right now is MOM.

Waste of time thinking of some insignificant person who actually just wanna used me for their own goods, and go away just like that.

I don't wanna give a damn anymore.

It was happen for once, and now twice.

Rebound.
Asking for my help but having fun with someone else.
I might look uptight, straight, conservative, but I still have A HEART.

Pathetic.
Only can say it out loud here.

Tired.
No more.
I have to learn to say 'NO'.

Problem.
I can't never say NO for that certain person.
Was like I had been cursed or something.

Once. It happen 7 years ago, when I was young, stupid.
Loving hopelessly, unconditionally because I'm stupid.

Twice. Just happen I guest.
When he had problem, me is the place to solve problem.
When he's not, I had been ignored.

For now on, I'll do everything for money, even for little thing.
I'll ask credit for my work.
I want they mention my name for what I'm working for.

Therefore for now on, I'm working for money, not for some stupid-kind-heart anymore.

#KedSays Most of people are looking at something, but not really seeing what actually the look.

I had been used for my brain but for some beauty, they were cherished for their beauty. That is how world revolve around human. Beauty is subjective, but they always forget to mention beauty is faking.

Don't blame for I'm thinking, it is the world that make me think like that.
Situation:
Pretty women, have no brain and sly used her friend's idea and admit it is her idea. Back-stabbed her friend and using her beauty. And the unlucky friend want her right back but other won't believe her, because she is not as pretty as her pretty friend.

Can't you see the difference? How world revolve around us?
Pretty face had everything, but the brainic??
What they got?
I got nothing.
For the start.
Till the last.


Please, correct me if I'm wrong.


Ked Flop
*Better be a mom's daughter forever than give your heart for some heartless person who just used you for their own goods.
**I lost the privileged to love now and ever.

#VeryShortUpdate

Oh hai!!
Assalamualaikum...
Bdw, merujuk perkara di atas, nie mmg short update.
Very one.

Ok. Gua tgh berpraktikal la nie, currently kat UITM Arau....
Tau dah nak kata apa? Dekat dengan rumah. Gua kan anak mak~
Nie pun kat cc, broadband dah terminate. So much la current broadband yg gua guna, time bil, kalau tak bayaq asyik call habaq, bila nak pakai; macam haram!! Terus terminate ja. Senang cerita tp sengsara la jugak hidup tanpa broadband nie.

Berbalik pada perkara berpraktikal, gua masuk LI awai 2 minggu dam dalam proses pi ambik, proses dan treatment utk raw material. BUt simce, we only go and fetch the raw material last Monday, I just finish processing that kayu bakau, dah bau pokok bakau la nie... Dalam CC bau pelik sikit tu gua lah~~ hahahaha

Oh! my lovely sayang-bff dah ada blog. Here the Let's Shine Forever Together. So, feel free to blogwalking to her blog. She's served sort off kpop things... Sapa2 yang gilakan kpop boleh melawat ke situ ;)

Jadi... hidup gua akan berkisar di sekitar Perlih semula. Yay~~

Tp walaubagaimana pun! Gua still rasa kurang. mungkin I got TOO used with the presence of mereka2 di Shah Alam dulu. Mungkin. Mungkin....

Rindunya kat:

1. Adik2 di Shah Alam; #Nano, #Nono/ Nor, #Fiz, #Miem, #Iman (budak yg suka sgt kacau weekend gua), #Aten, #Syafiq dan ramai lagilah. Nak sebut satu2 tak habih... Nanti gua attached senarai nama XD
2. Kakak2,kawan2, rumate; terutamanya Shima, Wana, Shida.... Rasa wei kehilangan beliau2 ini dlm kehidupam seharian gua.... -.-;

Oklah. Sepatutnya nak jadi pendek tp.... bnyk sgt nak crita hahahah
Tapi biar jelah tajuk macam tu.... kehkehkeh...

Last but not least, gua nak wish kepada kosmate;

SELAMAT BERPRAKTIKAL!!!

ALL THE BEST!!

Jaga maruah UITM! Jgn kerek! Sedar diri awak tu praktikal ja! hahaha

Awak semua bawak image UITM, walausiapa pun awak, jgn syok sendiri dan ingat KITA nie bawak nama UITM. Tak kesian kat diri sendiri atau UITM, kesialah pada Jrs yg bakal nak praktikal nanti. Susah depa nak mintak tempat praktikal nanti :)

Oklah. Sama2 kita beringat.


Tu ja. suppose to be short hahah

Ked Flop
*Rindulah korang
**Actually.... This post is personally for them; 4nSick.
*** Don't anti-soc yourself. There's always people, at least care about you ;)

Home

Home.

Yes. This is home. 

The warm-loving embrace.

The acceptance. 

The people.

The food.

The air.

HOME.

I'm finally home. 

(a post after 4 days at home actually ;p)

Ked Flop

*smiling

*working on thesis fyp

panorama senja dr belakang rumah

 

#dustineyes

Seem so far, I have gone down this road, only to find that its end.

Looking back, there is one thing that I know, I can't make it all alone again

Cause I'm to weak to stand on my own, but all I need is you.

Mom. All I need is Mom.

I need to break away from this world.

I want to despair.

I want to feel the air of home.

I just want to go home.

No longer can bear with all these stuff

No longer can breath in the positive sense of mine

No longer can hold the tears

No longer can stand people around

But then. 

Pride. Selfcenter.

Bear with all things, Liza.

Absorb all the positive sense, Liza.

Hold your tears, Liza.

Smile with all people you face, Liza.

Because breaking apart infront insignificance person will make them take advantage on you.

Pathetic.

Ked Flop

*despair

#np fall into you